The untold story : All my friends keep asking, am still trying to get over it. Gosh, the sensitive me is taking it side,and its been awhile. Sometimes dah jadi stage penat nak fikir dah because of all the insecurities and all before, but the thing always pops out suddenly out of nowhere. and the guilt came in. Am still get the feeling of blaming myself sebab tak pandai jaga at times and irresponsible towards you sometimes, sorry i put the blame on others sometimes, i learn this the hard way. Honestly, i learned and admit I can only focus on one thing at a time and am bad at multitasking. How has you been all this while? I miss you dearly, hope my decision is for the best for you and your future. Studies, family, future career, always comes first in anything for me. I dont want to be a distraction for you. I still believe one day you will achieve your dreams of becoming a doctor.
Life is funny isnt it? Just when you think you've got it all figured out,
just when you finally begin to plan something, get excited about something, and feel like you know what direction you're heading in, the paths change, the signs change, the wind blows the other way, north is suddenly south, and east is west, and you're lost. It is so easy to lose your way, to lose direction.
And that's with following all the signposts.
There aren't many sure things in life, but one thing I know for sure is that you have to deal with the consequences of your actions. You have to follow through on some things.
p/s: My project on heart rate has already started. Hoping I can get the gps system done as well by the end of the month.